That's not what happened

The poem behind the scenes

Well — this is where I’m gonna put a few poems — behind a paywall — but otherwise — gate(less) will continue to be free and open

That’s not what happened
8/27/2022, Juris d. Ahn

“You didn’t really die,” she said
after hearing the story, again
and again and again, to other
audiences, but still, I don’t
blame her, like she blamed 
me, like the stories she told
after we were done, funny
how the in dysfunctional
love, the love with a price,
the love of the mirror, the
love committed solely 
gland to gland, itch
to scratch, can 
thoroughly
hide

the imperfections
the being, of the other
and how fast the cracks
come, how all the ways
you lie to yourself leak
out, adhere to the
embodied fantasy
how we try to
justify our
broken
needs