Sunday Sundries
11/12/2023 Because I had a dream - I dreamed because - and other nonsense
The You Are Not You Society Con/Jur/d, 11/12/2023 In the hospital where we are always us despite having been told we'll need to give it up, dream of Papa Gede the psychopomp, in all his healing glory So many people we've worked with are gone, gone, gone Weeks later return at night to a retreat where we are learning to fly, we don't have a driver's license still, we learn how to fly a plane and sit zazen by the ocean In the past when we thought we had clarity with who we were there were other dreams Leaving the youth hostel, early swallowing an unknown quantity of powdered mushrooms from the bottom of a fellow traveler's backpack with vending machine orange juice The same traveler who had changed his life dropping everything during his PhD year and packing his car and driving to San Francisco, to be at the center of what was about to happen Having heard all the way in Boulder the garage rumbles electronic pings, beeps, and hisses getting louder than the easy riding industrial boom, clack, and roar He found us agog on the side of a country road later, after the peak knowing we were mad and always would be After we had found ourselves on the cliff, past the DO NOT GO PAST THIS SIGN PEOPLE HAVE BEEN SWEPT OFF and DROWNED Only bones, black rags, and a skull staring across the ocean even those memento mori consumed by the wind nothing left but wind We are wind Which is what we believe last night's nocturnal narrative can be reduced to -- try to win a poetry contest run out of time, miss the dead line, due to the parallel worlds’ interventions wake up hazy, just as the heat comes on a dry, far away from ocean, repeating and repeating the title lest it return like our other we from where it came You Are Not You Society The first stanza fades as the day insists try to recreate it as “In the hospital where we are always us” Later, Roshi says “You are not a person not really” and we hear last night’s message “You are not you”
Much love,
Con/Jur/d, 11/14/2023
Felt this one, it's excellent, from the style and content to the abrupt translocation of awareness // partly in the world, but palpably lensed from the great beyond. Good stuff, many thanks.