Jealous of your first time

5/19/2022 Reflections

When you realize now is the then you’ve been waiting for

A beautiful illustration of how when you are told about light — all photos become of only one thing

We don’t need ‘trick photography’ — to see how weird and remarkable everything is

I know it was said earlier but it’s worth repeating

Jealous of your first time
Con/Jur/d, 5/19/2022

Dismissive call them First Born
you know them too, and if you’re
honest, honestly we’re one too
acting like this is all new, shiny
yet, not meeting expectations
O look at how people are or
my gods wouldn’t do it like
this, unless you stole them
from me, and then sure
we’re all being punished

or the ecstasies exist
with ties of ownership
or are bound, to a
particular group
a particular
practice or

a codified confined castrated Being

not wild 
not here
not now

inherent in every breath
inside every beat, every pulse

but over there, that time then

Until you learn it’s always been
always will be and is

And I’m a little jealous
timeless sure, but there’s 
something special about
the first time you remember

and wonder how you forget

Take your time! You’re new here
only once, after all.

Much love y’all,

Con/Jur/d, 5/19/2022