headshots 4/1/2026 Con/Jur/d the trick of it not that it doesn’t change always or not/not changing O! like the saint/witch who read without moving his lips? blessing, supernatural, if there had been a word like bigger than nature instead of demon/god, so primitive, well there is nothing wrong with evolution just misused, hidden by progress, given a directionality when really everywhere, at once and we think there’s movement, like how we’re all acting, allthetime posting headshots, like we’re trying out for the supershow, the show behind the show transcends/includes the fourth and fifth many walls where everything is real and we’re not just portraying the role O! See what you did there how did we do? we will/we’ll get back to you, soon… ish (years pass) headshots pt. 2 (back to) STONED, walking home in BUFFALO, NY witching hour, which due to closing time 4 AM, shifted from the usual 3 AM to 4:30 TO 5:30, ENDING officially at 6 AM when the first bar reopened and the Greek Diners would close for an hour Would imagine dying by assassination ( Lennon’s death by bullet only a few years past, if only Hinkley had been as committed may be the LONGWAR, could’ve mayhap been prevented ) by ammunition fired from a high-powered rifle DEAD before the EARS heard BANG no worry of dying no pain, undoness blamed on the killer, not on our LAZINESS but, it was at the modern art museum THE ALBRIGHT KNOX the thoughtless thought, had its APOGEE NON-CRIMINALIZED MDMA then, aka 3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine BECAUSE CORRECT CHEMISTRY IS IMPORTANT we had indulged, better cure than other commonly commodified white cleaning powders for neural gunkiness, and the cuddle-puddles the sweaty confessions, the hugged drugged SUCCOR, all the live long night before not a thought left in our heads not a , not a , not a , not a Before THE JACKSON POLLOCK (the same year we started smoking was the same year his discarded paint stuck cigarette butt fell off -- not to be restored don’t want to encourage the kiddies, smokeless they must commit domestic abuse and debauchery, and we ) said, WOW! Caught in the swirling swirliest of SWIRL! SWIRL! BLOTCH? a grammarless assault of color where did the ‘wow’ come from? There was no one and none, to wow NO THOUGHT NO THROAT NO CONSCIOUSNESS NO LACK OF CONSCIOUSNESS NO HEART SUTRA NO NOT HEART SUTRA, NO SUTRA BUT WOW (if you think this is 2 or many poems there is no 2) ONLY WOW and the silence before and the silence after out of which comes all atomsantsaardvarks, bananascastlesdemons, energyfro - gsguesses & gods & galaxies graveyards & heavens IS & ISN’T & YOUS & USES, blasting out of exploding into, banging thunderously: SILENCE.
“I confess”
When we were kidz they didn’t mean/not that they were nice Con/Jur/d, 3/30/2026 Never one thing he said wake me up after the evolution meant, of course revolution, and for a while, he lived with us not sure why those days, much of the violence PUBLIC IDENTITY, remained hidden and so it would have stayed, until someone wanted profit display /ENTER/ your inside self like a giant flag (too many appz/tabz) happy parade day (we couldn’t afford st. ptrick’s) then they start checking, not only if you salute How. Why. and despite the violence, and the bullying (much worse/worse kept quiet kept forgotten) at least we could rely on the boyz/boyz girlz/girlz boyz/girlz girlz/boyz that it didn’t work repression in daylight A flag so big it BLOCKZ/sunz sorry for that it's how we were raised at least you talk about it reaching down stripping … under the rock STILL LIFE undulate calling it new worlds like, trauma like, dopamine still hides it YOU is always a verb at least when you’re alone don’t hold/tight under faux security handholds NO- UNS!!! knew how to fly when certainty slips. …off
NOBODY EXPECTS,
Much love,
Con/Jur/d, 4/1/2026
