Day 30, Last Call
Final Note
Con/Jur/d, 4/30/2021
“I’ll have it,
as spicy as you would
make it for yourself,”
the place was called Phuket, (restaurant,
not city)
after all and she and I were bonded
by closing times, and little-
deaths, the ones, no one notices
happened, tricked by ill-
usions of continuance,
Everything, immediately,
irrevocably different --
The Heat, the heat squared,
veering, accelerating progressions,
imaginary numbers
sweat, becoming quicksand
trapping this body, from toenails to hair
follicles (growing, growing), a
matted, gluing expanse delineated
holy-perspiration. We’ve been here
before, are always still there, like
the dance floor, where go, going, gone
the bottom,
drops
out,
every note, dragon scales, pulsating
precious nets of light suspended from,
branching from, a spine, an articulated
skeleton whose hollows are filled with stars,
we’re flying, the anatomical map has awoken,
become, a territory whose coastline can never -
ever be measured,
we, you, me, should be asking,
“What am I? How am I? Where am I?”
When Home is the answer,
it precludes the question.
Why bother
asking when
you know?
Look how simple,
laughing, laughing, laughing
only invert figure and ground.,
Suddenly taste:
Thai Basil -- Lemon Grass -- Shitake
the Red on the Bell Pepper -- the delicate
scales of Anchovies crushed
for Fish Sauce -- Galangal invokes
a mist rising above a steaming waterfall,
hidden beneath webs, Banana leaves a heavily
scented flowering vine -- is that spinach? --
didn’t know jalapenos could cool like this
dark-green moss bedecked
by refractive droplets of water -- Tom Yum? --
or paintings aligned
singularly,
in well-lit rooms painted gallery white -- a constellation of
bassbeat suns, gravity-waves, undulating umami guitars,
sweet/bitter synthesizers, salty voices, whole planets
swallowed by drums of unknown size and origin --
broth or wormhole? --
dancing or eating? shirt stuck to chest? --
there’s a mirror -- who’s looking?
There it is.
The Note played
by the Original Birth
still echoing when
we’ve gone,
back.
Did we go?
“I’m going to the bar to get water,
don’t worry,
I’ll be
back.”
Well, y’all what a month it’s been. Heading to Rochester to work on the boat this weekend, more photos less poetry. I wanted to end with a BANG but ended on more of a
whisper.
May, besides being this bull’s best birthday month, is the occasion of my first official artist’s retreat and starting a new class with JF Martell “Art as Spiritual Practice.’ Come on by the podcast at weird studies eerily resonated with some of the poems posted here;-) https://www.weirdstudies.com/97. I need to regroup, rest and start on some ‘bigger projects.’ Not sure, what it will mean for gate(less), more or less? We’ll see. But I promise (unless events conspire otherwise)
I’ll probably still be posting daily, so please spread the Word, to those needing a strong & strange tonic of
Con/Jur/d, 4/30/2021